Everytime we get done

Every time we get done,
Life feels hard.
Every time we get done,
Love songs seem gory.
Every time we get done,
I feel lost like a child.
Every time we get done,
I want to hold you one last time.
Every time we get done,
Time wants to rewind too.
Every time we get done,
I want you back even more.
Every time we get done,
Infidelity's no more a way of life.
Every time we get done,
I want to wipe out every memory.
Every time we get done,
Tears like being playful.
Every time we get done,
I hate the rain.
Every time we get done,
Flashbacks are scorned.
Every time we get done,
The universe is more important.
Every time we get done,
My eyes open to infinity.
Every time we get done,
My ego becomes a person again.
Every time we get done,
The world seems intoxicated.
Every time we get done,
Life is just about me, just about me....

Needs and Wants !!!

Its funny but the connection between Need and Want is crazy !!!
A want may or may not necessarily be what we need, while on the other hand what we need may not seem like a want, then our needs turn into wants and our wants turn into needs.
Apparently *HE* gives us what we need, not what we want.
So every time one of our wants get fulfilled we can officially call it our need. WOW

So what if you get something only for awhile,then were you being tested ?? and your reaction determined if you should have it or not
then it is eventually determined by the forces of the universe that if the thing you just got was what you need then you continue getting it and just in case it was a want, its going to go away.
WOW how disappointing.
so the possibility of anything staying with you till the end of time is absolutely NIL
so then we should never want anything because the possibility of getting and then keeping it is impossible
why does life do that to us ...
is this karma???

my logic for this is

When you get it-
You deserved it and you been thru many setbacks to have this in your hand.

When he doesn't give you-
He knows you do not need it, its just that at that very moment your life worthless without it but the truth is there is so much more in store for you that this disappointment is the beginning to bigger things in life.

When you get it but only partially or its taken away from you-
We assume at every point that we know everything and how one thing can make our life easier or better. Life feels cruel, how something is so close yet so far, so achievable yet unattainable. Sometimes we spend our entire life thinking *WHAT IF*
What if i got a distinction in my exams..
What if she was in my life...
What if i lived in another city..
What if i never had to meet him...
What if we were married...
What if ..what if...what if...
Life starts revolving around the *what if* more than what is.
On an average all of us have plenty of these questions in our heads, is why sometimes we get something partially.
For eg, do u remember saying this to your self-
Thank god i never have to see her again.
I am so happy with him,the last one was such a jerk.
This city has so much more to offer, good i didn't move.
So on and so forth..

Yes these things happen and you have to let them happen, otherwise Life would be boring and incomplete.
If we didn't know how it feels to not have something we wont appreciate what we have.

And so,
We all NEED Mistakes to WANT new and improved Happiness in our Lives...

Just another day...

Sometimes a day passes by so quickly that i don't have a second to think,
and sometimes i wish i never had to think...
is life complicated ??? NO
Life is simple, WE are complicated
In this case I am complicated.
What do i really want to do ?

First i want to Quit Smoking...
Then get a job outside Bombay..
I want to only think about my self...
I want a dog, a kitten, a lion cub...
I want to believe that this world will be a better place to live in..
I want to live in a place where no one believes in marriage...


You will notice most of my wants are unreasonable,trust me from my point of view all of them are unreasonable.Why ???

I do not want to really quit smoking,I like it. If i die earlier well and good, who wants to be old anyways.Plus after a drink there is nothing like a good smoke :)

Get a job outside Bombay...i cant live without my mother and i am a very scared person i need emotional support. Altho I like being alone but i cant do that for too long or may be I can. I am too scared to find out

Think only about myself...why is that a want and why I think its unreasonable, is something I myself do not understand so to write about it is going to be difficult. So lets leave it to that.

My mother believes she is already taking care of a zoo so no additional animals in the house allowed. If got one it will be at the risk of losing your own cage in the zoo.

This world...blah blah..such a Miss Universe want lol World Peace kinds :) I have always been one of those who wants to see this world better (most of us are) but i think such a want is unreasonable. This world might never get better...again MIGHT.
I hope i am proved wrong..

Marriage is a big Question mark. I am getting older and i do picture myself once in awhile in a wedding gown and all that jazz, but then i think the pros of marriage are passe. People are getting divorced and marriages are breaking down on absolutly frivilous issues and given a bit of wrong experience, I have lost all faith on MANkind. Maybe another want of mine would be to live in a huge house with people who think like me...have kids ...have lots of dogs...again unreasonable want.

yes this is my just another day ...

and again,

LIFE is SIMPLE..
WE are COMPLICATED...

In the dark cavern of my soul He lit a spark of light,
We did not meet, so what? of him i caught a sight.

That closeness however has fallen to my rival's lot,
The fun we had over little tiffs is now forgot.

The wounds of parting have healed and hurt no more,
You sleep in peace again, I am at rest as before.

When I have nothing else to do,i ask where has our love fled,
Does it lie beneath the earth or swallowed by the sky and dead.

How long will you lie on the corpse of days gone by,
Wretched ones awake, the sun is high in the sky.


- Nasir Raza Qazmi.
translated by Khushwant Singh.

Emily Dickinson-We never know how high we are (1176)

We never know how high we are
till we are called to rise.
And then, if we are true to plan,
our statures touch the skies.



The heroism we recite
would be a daily thing.
did not ourselves the cubits warp,
for fear to be a king.